When life gives you lemons, it isn't so
easy to just get right up and make lemonade. My main message in this
page over the last year is to stay positive and not let negative
happenings get you down, but that really isn't all that easy is it?
What happens when Ms. Suzy Sunshine has a cloud over her? What
happens when it isn't so easy for her to take her own advice?
Don't worry, this post is starting off
as negative, but it is very much so going to be positive. I wanted to
start off that way to show that even the most positive person has
days/weeks/months etc. that they throw all their own advice out the
window and just sulk. That is okay. What matters is how they recover
from them and how they handle them.
Last week I was informed that both me
and my mother are losing our jobs next month. This is not due to
anything we did or didn't do, the company is simply making cutbacks
and our positions were eliminated. I am sure most people have been
through similar things. Maybe not a job but the loss of something
consistent in your life suddenly. I would imagine the first normal
reaction is fear. Once the initial shock wore off I immediately
started wondering about my car payment, car insurance, health
insurance, etc. Quite frankly I was scared, and still am truthfully,
and I am sure my mother had a similar reaction. It was so easy for me
to just lay in bed, cry, and start thinking of everything that can go
wrong because of this event. It took me a few days, but I finally
decided not to let myself get in the same funk I was in back when I
first graduated college and couldn't find a job. I decided I need to
take my own advice.
I am trying my very best to put a
positive spin on things. I am currently home using my last vacation
day so I do not lose it, tweaking my resume and sending it in to
various jobs. I decided to take a break to write this. Writing has
always been what I do when I am emotional, but I digress. As I have
mentioned in numerous previous posts, I am a firm believer that
everything happens for a reason. I truly believe that God has a plan
in motion for me and, although that doesn't fully take the worry
away, it does help me come to terms with it a bit. It is so easy to
be angry and bitter when you are thrown a curve ball in life, but I
believe it takes a lot of strength to accept that you are just
walking on the path of your fate. I think even those that are not
religious can take comfort in this concept.
The next thing we both have been trying
to do it continue living life as normal as possible. I know that is a
lot easier said than done, but you really have to try and maintain a
normal everyday life. If you let something like this consume your
thoughts entirely you will end up right where I was when I was
initially job searching. Completely depressed and probably at the
lowest point of my life. I am refusing to let myself get there again.
But even despite all that, still continue to do what you love and
makes you happy.
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On the left, April and Me.
On the right, Me feeding Oliver carrots.
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| I took this super cute picture of baby Tajiri in the barn. |
My bottom line here is that it is so
easy to let something negative consume you and drag you down. Even me
with all my positive posts and positive thoughts gets down in the
dumps sometimes. I decided to take my own advice, pick myself up, and
hopefully not just grow but flourish from this, just like a phoenix
is reborn from its ashes. Keep on living your life as normally as you
possibly can when something major happens, and do your very best to
make that lemonade.
